Have you ever forgot what you were gonna do or need?
I’m sure some of us yes and allot of us hell yea! Lol
The other day I had a wonderful topic to write about on here and silly me I forgot about it and I can’t remember it at all and it’s bugging the crap out of me.
But of course there are other things I forget as well and I don’t like it one bit.
Well I just thought I would rant a bit
Have a wonderful hump day!!!
Thank you for taking the time to read my posts it means allot to me and I appreciate it.
Much Love & Respect!
So the other night I was talking to my supervisor about what she was planning to do on her night off and what were her and her mans plans are.
Ok I’m not judging if you consider this as judging but what she told me I didn’t see her as that type of person to do those things for her man.
But anyways what she had plan was when she got off of work that morning which was yesterday she was lighting up candles to have the whole house smelling good then when he arrived from work he would walked into the nice smell of candles and have bought breakfast for them to eat.
Ok they slept and she would have let him sleep a little longer and she would have started to prep the food for dinner or supper whatever you call it so when they come back from spending the day together basically the food would be ready which she cooked steak and shrimp and I
While he was playing games on his ps3 she would have their bathroom lit up in candles, having a nice bubble bath going for both of them, and rose pedals everywhere with a bottle of wine ready for them so they can wine down together and well you know where it went from there. A very nice happy ending.
So when she told me this I was like “what!? Quit lying” “I thought they only did that in movies.” Then she tells me “Yes girl I sure do it all for my man. You got to keep that spark up if not he is gonna be looking for it somewhere else. You can’t be predictable and be the same ol you got to spice it up.”
So that got me thinking like well hell I should do the same for my man not because I think he is gonna leave me but because he deserves it. I mean he works hard to provide for his family so my husband deserves something at least once a month to let him know “yea baby all for you. You are the best!”
So all you ladies out there that are married what do yall do to keep that flame going or those sparks flying?
I would like to know and we can discuss it. This could be very interesting. I just had to let yall know about this and wanted to know what do you ladies do.
Thank you for taking the time reading my post. It really means allot to me and I appreciate it very much.
Much Love & Respect!
Yes I am a day late. I’m sorry
But i hope everyones valentines was wonderful and recieved allot of goodies. My day was wonderful of course going home at 6am seeing my son running to me with open arms and a kiss waiting to happen is the best V-day gift ever and of course seeing my husband at the door waiting for me to give a huge bear hug and a sloppy kiss and a smack on the ass is priceless i wouldnt trade for anything in the world.
The thing i didnt like about yesterday was i was so tired and all i wanted to do is sleep because work kicked my butt last night. And not being able to function very well and play with my son hurt me so much because all he wanted is my attention and love but i couldnt do it i was beat down to the max. So this time i will not let my son down again.
But other then that my V-day was a blessing. I may not get jewlery or teddy bears or whatever all these other females get all i want is my kings by my side enjoying the day with me and thats all i need and always will need.
But i hope yalls day went well and wonderful and spent it with the one you love or the people that love you.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post it really means allot to me.
Much Love & Respect.
Ok you read the outcome now here is after the outcome.
I can honestly say after all of that drama, negativity, evil, and just bad vibes I feel a whole lot better about myself as an individual. How?, you ask. Well I have been more open with my husband and myself as well. I come clean with mostly everything that starts to bother me yes I still tend to want to hide it but I fight against because I don’t want to go back down that hell road.
Being open and having more communication with each other has helped me and improve our relationship more.
I think another reason for all that drama and negativity happened was I lost my way. I lost my Savior, my Father in the Heavens above he was missing in me in my heart and when I realized I went to church Sunday morning and it felt wonderful even though I didn’t really pay attention to the readings because I was trying to control my son but just being in there I felt a big difference and a shift change in me leading me to the right path and it was awesome!!
After all that I went through it felt like it never happened like its been erased and I hope I can keep it that way forever but with God by my side I know I can!
Thank you for taking the time reading my posts it means so much to me!
Much Love & Respect!
So remember I said that I wrote my husband the letter and if I should give it to him.
I had a long talk with my cousin she didn’t know all the things that I have been going through and all the negative thoughts that have been messing my mind and body up. She basically told me that I need to let him know now before its to late and by meaning to late she meant that before it gets worse.
So I thought about it and argued with her about it and she was right I needed to let him just have the letter and read it no matter the outcome.
Now the questions was:
When should I give it to him? Should I be present when he reads it? Or should I let him read it when I’m at work?
My cousin tells me, “That’s up to you, but if that I was me I would want him to read it in front of me so he can see my reactions to him reading it so he can really know how I fell.”
She was right my husband had to know and see me how I felt about it all.
After she left I thought to myself and asked if I should give him the letter tonight before I go to work or now when he gets off of work so we can just talk about it and get through this crap so I can somewhat start feeling better.
The moment of truth. We ate dinner and after he was relaxed I handed him the letter. I was nervous and scared I felt like a little kid waiting for some kind of punishment but why thought all I did was had him a letter that held in my pain and thoughts.
As he was reading it I felt the tears come down rolling on my cheeks and as he sees me whipping them away he kisses me like he was apologizing to in his way. I told him, “please finish reading the letter so we can talk about it” he kept reading and he would look up at me from the letter and then he would continue. When he finished the one question I knew he was going to ask was going to make be burst into tears “Why can’t you just open up to me?”
From there the tears came rolling down more. I couldn’t stop crying it was so hard to control myself after holding everything in it finally came out and it felt so good. My husband hugged me so tight as if he knew what I was feeling and I cried on his shoulder until I was out of tears.
From there on I told myself never again I will keep anything away from my husband he is my BEST FRIEND, MY SOULMATE, the FATHER to our son, and my BETTER HALF.
After going through all of that and being an emotional wreck I have learned a lesson that I will never forget.
Thank you for reading my posts it really means allot to me.
Much Love & Respect!
Working nights is becoming some what of a problem for me. I thought it would be easy and ok with my mind and body but its taking its toll on me. I’m alone with my thoughts and they tend to scare me at times. Just sitting here or do whatever I do these thoughts come to me and make me think the worse things ever. I hate it!! Then I start to pray so they can go away but they are just there repeating itself over and over and all I want to do is scream. Gosh I didn’t know how alone I can be working nights. I guess the only way these thoughts would go away is I work days but then again these thoughts will always be in the back of my head.
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If you have this problem as well don’t worry you are not the only one.
Ok, so I decided to write a letter to my husband explaining to him what is bothering me and why I have been so sad or depressed. This letter turn out to be a 10 page essay I’m just kidding but it almost did.
As I was writing this letter at work last night tears were rolling down my cheeks I had this heavy pressure in my heart and all this weight on my shoulders I just felt so lost and alone. But as I was pouring out everything on to those sheets of paper I felt some what a relief. I mean I cant explain the feeling that it had over me but it felt good to write it out and not have it bottled up.
I didn’t know writing it out would make such a big difference to me. I heard people tell me that “I should talk more, and that I am here for you” and all that nonsense but really are they?
Do they really mean it? “I am here for you” Honestly I don’t really know. But I do know that writing it out on a sheet of paper was the best thing I ever done. At least I know the pen and paper wont judge me for my thoughts and feelings. So I will just stick to my new friends Mr. Pen and Mrs. Paper.
Now the letter I don’t know if I will give it to my husband so he can read it. I really have to think about that, I know I should but some of my issues may cause a argument and I really don’t need that right now due to how I have been lately.
What do you all do to help you relief some things? I would like to know and it could help me in the future.
Thank you for taking the time to read my posts
Much love & respect!